One Year Anniversary of Random Thoughts
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Yes, you read that right. I have been posting on here for one year now. And I said about a month ago that I wanted to try and get to 10,000 hits on my site before the one year mark came up, well, that happened and then some. I ended up with 10,572 hits on my site in the first year. Not too shabby. So this is post number 377. Unreal, huh? Have you read them all? Do you even know me? Maybe you do, maybe you don’t. Just in case you don’t, this is my kind of state of the union address. This post is just about me and what is going on in my life right now. Parts will be goofy wierd and parts will be a little deeper than I normally go, but these are my random thoughts, and this is what is going through my head at this point.
I am in school. I feel like I have been in school forever. I mean, I
have been in school for almost 6 years out of the almost 7 I have been
out. I feel like I will never be done sometimes. I have only 6 more
classes to go until I graduate. So I will finish up in the May/June
area. I have my Associates in Computer and Electronic Engineering, and
plan on adding a Bachelors in Technical Project Management to the mix
when I graduate. I am at ITT right now and not in the traditional
sense. After finding out that I was not going to be able to graduate
until next December because classes weren’t going to be offered at the
right time for me, I decided that it was better for me to take all of
my classes online and get done 6 months earlier. So I am coming up fast
on the end of school, at least hopefully. I also, just yesterday, got
certified as a Microsoft Certified Professional in Windows XP. So that
is one extra thing I can put on the resume, and put it towards becoming
a Microsoft Certified Systems Analyst.
But just because I am
almost done with school does not mean that I know at all what I want to
do after I graduate. I have a pretty nice job that underpays me right
now. But they have opened up opportunities for me and have expressed
the interest that I stay and would like to keep me if they can. And I
want to give them that opportunity, but not at the cost of my own
well-being. If they give me something comparable to other companies are
willing to pay, then I will probably stay, but I don’t see that
happening. But I really don’t even know that I want to stay in
computers. I enjoy them, they are fun to play with and certain parts of
that, I really have fun with. But they are also a pain and I don’t know
that I want to sit and fiddle with them for the next 40 years.
Sometimes I think that I may just want to work in some business,
corporate setting, other times I think that I want to sing for the rest
of my life. Then there are those days where I am just sure that I want
to be a movie critic. I really don’t know what I want though. I think
any of those would make me happy from time to time, but I don’t know
which one I would enjoy more. Movies and music are big parts of my
life, but so are computers. Any one of those three gets lost out of my
life and things would be difficult for me. But like I said, I just
don’t know where to go from here, I am just getting my bases covered at
this point.
In the vein of relationships. Nonexistent I think
would be the word. I have gone on a few dates in the last little while,
but nothing substantial. There was one girl that I was interested in,
but she lived too far away and things just didn’t quite work out. And I
would rather know that after a couple of dates, instead of spending day
after day with that person and then finding out later on that things
weren’t meant to be. But I just have a problem meeting girls. It isn’t
that I am bad with them or anything. In fact, I think I do quite well
relationally, and interacting with women. I grew up with two sisters,
so I know how to talk to girls without it being strange. Growing up, I
probably had more friends that were girls than just about any of my
other guy friends. So I think that is a testament to how well I can get
along with girls. But in the things I am involved in, I just don’t get
the opportunity to meet single women. I guess I could go to a bar or
something and meet girls, but if they are at a bar, then they are
probably not the girls that I want to date anyways. I mean, I posted
about a year ago about how picky I was.
And I really don’t see any of those things changing other than the age
thing, just because I am getting older, then she can be older as well.
My 2 year rule applies. I keep looking for my perfect girl, but I also
keep not finding her. I know she exists because I see her in my dreams,
I just can’t make out her face. I hope that she is more than just a
figment of my imagination. Sounds like lyrics to a song, huh? Strange.
Didn’t do that on purpose.
Church is going well. I am attending The Vineyard on Sunday mornings,
and am leading worship at First Baptist Church of Maryville on
Wednesday nights for a service called H2O that is a stripped down,
intimate session between you and God. I enjoy it and have fun with it.
It is hard sometimes though to make sure that I am doing it because God wants me to and not for my own satisfaction. Sometimes I wonder about that. I wonder just how much of it is the thoughts that I have about doing this the way that I want it done, and how much is the way God wants it done. It is a hard line to find. It is especially hard when i don’t have time to be still. I say that knowing that I have time if I will make it, but I have my hand in so many honeypots at this point, that I can’t really rest and relax, and take my mind off of all of the things that I am doing and just focus on Him. I have my quiet times, though not consistently, I read my bible, or at least excerpts from it every once in a while, I pray, when I get ready to eat, or need help, and then step up and lead worship. How that is supposed to glorify Him, I don’t know. But He is working in the service nonetheless. People are coming to the service to be fed, and are really getting a lot out of the service as a whole, so I know that it is doing some good. But I just wonder how much better it would be if they had a worship leader who was where he needed to be with God, and not constantly doing the least amount of work to get by in his relationship with the Creator. Whether that is me or someone else, I don’t know. Right now, I just know that I am enjoying leading and fellowshipping and finding a creative outlet.
My family is all doing well. Dad and Rita are both healthy and enjoying leading their Healing Health Alternatives class every Wednesday at Memorial. They have a strong group that are seeing amazing things happening in their health because of the change in diet. Plus it helps Rita to have a support group that is on the same diet that she is. They meet and Rita counsels all of the time on the phone with people to help them with their health problems. Plus they have made a lot of good friends that they would not have otherwise. Tina and her family are doing well also. She just had her third child. His name is Casey Joseph Simmerly. He was born just a couple of months ago and is such a sweet kid. Of course, as you know, i am biased toward him. Her other two, Hannah and Ryne, are sweet as well, but since they are older, 4 and almost 6, they have a little more of a mean streak to them. But I love them just the same since they are my blood and, of course, I would do anything for them. They are my pride and joy. Tina is building a new house as well. Or I should probably say Jerry is building a new house since he is the one who really wants it. I think Tina would be fine staying in the current house, but Jerry has to be on the move. So like I said, the family is doing well.
This wasn’t a post to make you feel sorry for me or anything like that, in fact, my life is going quite well. It was just something to let you know how things were in my part of the world. They aren’t going quite as I had planned, but of course, they never do. Just pray for me that I can stay strong and resilient and keep going forward with my life and pray that those around me can do the same. Thank you to all of you who read this page all of the time to get a little bit closer glimpse of my life and what is going on around me.